Tuesday, May 29, 2007

"God,I need your help!"

Hey People of God,

Yesterday, I had a very personal experience as it relates to my personal struggle, but I have decided to do my best to share it with you. Yesterday, I had to fight a strong hold. It was a strong hold that had me wishing to be dead. Now I know that most Christians have already began to condemn me as if they don’t have any troubles in life, but I have learned that the only way to be healed and completely free in life is to be honest…and yesterday, the devil began tormenting me early in the morning…. All I could see was everything that I wasn’t.

I began to cry, wishing that God would just take me out. I never fathomed taking my own life, but I just wanted God to reach down from heaven and pull me from this earth. I was hurting, and I felt so alone. Frustration rose up in me. “God!” I cried. “How can you expect me to go through this when I’m so broken and so alone?" How can you expect me to go through this when I’m so misunderstood?” I began to weep and sob. “I don’t want it,” I cried to him. “I don’t want it.”

I’m sure right now you’re thinking of all the times in your life you’ve felt like this. Right now you’re sympathizing with me. You may even think you’ve found your excuse to be sad and depressed, but my friends, I come to tell you that there is still Power in Prayer!

Even at my lowest on yesterday, I cried out for help and there was relief. I was so weak from crying, all I could manage to let out was a loud sob “God, I need your help,” and do you know that God is so awesome that He would not let me drop one more tear.

Sure, I was still down, but part of my being down was because I wanted to be down. I’ll be honest. After being pitiful for so long, I wanted to stay in self pity, but sometimes deliverance simply comes in strength. Sometimes, God says, “No, I’m not going to stop it, but I’m going to give you the strength to endure it,” and when he gives you the strength, you have to make the choice to endure.

All of life isn’t going to be easy. Sometimes, the cares of life will weigh on you so bad that you won’t want to go on, but it’s in these times that the strength of God is perfected in you.

So…friends, today, are you needing help? Do you feel like you’re at the bottom and can’t see how you’re coming up? Today, I admonish you. Don’t make that trip to the liquor store…Or don’t do like me on my worst days and make the visit to Wal-Mart and hide the bottle at the bottom of the basket because people know you are saved and you don’t want to lose your witness. After all, it’s only a temporary fix.

If you want help, cry out! Cry out to God. He may not answer your prayer by changing your situation, but He’ll take your weariness and give you strength. I pray that this has blessed you.

Take some time and mediate on today’s scriptures

Psalm 5:2 (Whole Chapter) Hear the sound of my cry, my King and my God, for to You do I pray.

Psalm 18:6 (Whole Chapter) In my distress I called upon the Lord and cried to my God; He heard my voice out of His temple, and my cry came before Him, into His ears.
Psalm 88:2 (Whole Chapter) Let my prayer come before You and really enter into Your presence; incline Your ear to my cry!

Romans 8:26 (Whole Chapter) So too the Spirit comes to our aid and bears us up in our weakness; for we do not know what prayer to offer nor how to offer it worthily as we ought, but the Spirit Himself goes to meet our supplication and pleads in our behalf with unspeakable yearnings and groanings too deep for utterance.

2 Corinthians 11:29 (Whole Chapter) Who is weak, and I do not feel weakness? Who is made to stumble and fall and have his faith hurt, and I am not on fire?

2 Corinthians 12:9 (Whole Chapter) But He said to me, My grace is enough for you; for My strength and power are made perfect and weakness. Therefore, I will all the more gladly glory in my weaknesses and infirmities, that the strength and power of Christ may rest upon me!


Anonymous said...

i don't know you or why or when or where you decided to write this, but thank you. i have been very down and need god's help. the biggest battle to this point was acknowledging that. i once was a very strong Christian, but got down on the ways of other professing to be Christians and decided the name wasn't fitting any longer. thank you for reaching out to a stranger in the true reflection of Christ.

Anonymous said...

Hi, my name is don.it is ironic, how many people; need god right now.i am homeless and alone, or just feel like that. they say you can find anything on the internet.well i am crying out to find god.i had open heart surgery 3 years ago, and knew he was there but i have lost my way and need him now very bad. my son is in jail and 3 daughters are in toxic relationShips .i see them hurting and it kills me my god where did i lose you. if anyone reads this please pray for me and my kids, and if you see or hear from god tell him i love and miss him

Anonymous said...

This was such a blessing. Deliberating, and eye opening. Sometimes the chains seem so strong and impossible but you showed me the beauty in pain and how God's perfect grace will outlast all.

-S.M said...

Thanks for your comments. I had forgotten my username and password, so I could not post them immediately, but I read them the moment I got them. Don, I am praying for you. May you begin to see the hand of God move in your life like never before. I speak restoration to your family and their families! May your body be healed in Jesus' name! And may you remember that if any man be in Christ Jesus, he is a new creature and old things are passed away! Be restored to Christ! Love you, my brother in Christ! To anonymous, I can identify with your situation. I too, have been severely wounded by people who profess to be Christians, but just don't care about other people. It took me a while, but I had to learn that we are all in process. And there are people still being perfected. The truth is although there are people who will let us down time and time again, God will be there for us whenever we need Him! Hope you find your way right back to Christ where you belong! Love you!

Anonymous said...

Thank you so much for this your post! It helped me just now. i don't really understand my situation right now but i want to grow and be a better christian, i seem to be doing it all wrong but with this i understand i can cry out to the one that i serve in as much as i feel alone right now i know that he is with me. His words truly comfort me! i just thank you so much.